So after a one year plus two months hiatus, i am back to blogging.

I thought blogging would just leave my life as i got sickly tired of writing and posting photos on blogger/livejournal.

Tried writing on livejournal and I only managed to squeeze out like ten plus posts during that emo period when i was still lost within those delusions.

But i finally decided to find a new skin, revamp my blog and start to blog as i have too much thoughts in my mind and i need to pen them down.

I am happy that I made the decision not to be involved in any internships or long work commitments this last long holiday that I will be having for my student life. Because once I graduate, that holiday period will not be a real one as I will be stressed to find jobs and I will say goodbye to my student life.

During this holiday, I felt that I truly lived. Many of my thoughts were straighten out and I met new friends and had new bonds with current friends.

I am someone who needs plenty of time for myself. I need my personal space, I need a day to settle down, think through my thoughts and do some evaluation in my mind.

Life is hard enough for our people and what's worst, I always feel that I mature slower, like 1-2years slower than my peers. When people turn 21/22, they are mostly already happy and knows clearly what they want in their life. But for me, it was different. I was still struggling.

For the past 1-2 years, I felt that I have matured a lot. I have learnt to look at things from more perspectives and I seem more able to handle life in this kind of environment.


Respect differences. That's what this world needs to learn. I am still in the process of learning and I hope people around me will understand what this two word means.

For example, I get pissed whenever people can't accept the fact that there are actually people in this world who doesn't like alcohol as much as they do.
Alcohol, music, intimacy(sex). These are my classification of seeks for club-goers.

Some people might be there for a mixture of all three, some mostly for alcohol indulges and some purely to dance and enjoy the music. Who are you to judge and tell that person, no, you should go to club for intimacy and not for music, or go to club for alcohol and not for music.

Learn to respect differences, especially your close ones and don't force down your thinking on others.

There is no fixed formula for everything, that's what I learn in my faculty, there's no right or wrong answer, it's how you phrase it or from which perspective you are viewing this from.

And it applies to many other decisions that people make in their life too.

Learn to accept.

"We can never promise forever, because changes in this world is always faster than plans in our head.
But for now, this is exactly what I feel."